Really trying to be organised.
Woke up this morning feeling overwhelmed.
Conflict between control and surrender to what IS.
It's as if I have to do it all NOW .. sooner than later.
sadness
Frustration
Inner scream
Made a list.
First item on the list " pay bills " took far longer than I thought because I couldn't find the pay in slips, and had to phone.
Insight- I don't have to for Susanne's course today - I can give her the money when I see her- does not have to be done via the internet.
Was moved and touched by a post from a recovering drug addict so responded - that took a while too.
Kicking any habit is tough . Must be really tough to get an addiction off your back.
I'm addicted to food. When I don't have it , I feel weak and feeble and can't think straight.
LOVE breakfast - two eggs ( again ) bread , stewed tomatoes and cup of coffee. MMMMMmm YUMMY !! Gentlly fried in olive oil. I go through a lot of olive oil.. is that ok ? Don't use artificial processed fats and oils .. only the pure stuff.. olive oil and butter .. butter used sparingly. No white sugar. No processed foods. Fullcorn pasta. Vegggies , no meat , salmon , fish .. slamon is farmed .. wonder how healthy that is ? I.Q. capsules .. for my brain and for my heart. ..3 tablespoons of crushed flaxseed ... all manner of goodness in those.
What else is on my list
Call Telia, Thorbjörn, Iréne,
Go for a walk, exercise
meditate
journal
food shopping
work
Ah the rest will come to me .